If you’re wondering, those are mousetraps.
I would never use a mousetrap on a mouse, but I would use it on a dick.
If you’re wondering, those are mousetraps.
I would never use a mousetrap on a mouse, but I would use it on a dick.
sub c is from out of state and isn’t in Philly much, but he happened to be visiting only a month after he was here last. “[I] cannot resist the opportunity to session with You again,” he wrote in a message to me.
When we first spoke, sub c told me he wanted pain. While he used the word “masochist” to describe himself, what that meant to him wasn’t the conventional definition. But I understood it. And I turned it over in my head as I thought about our first, and now 2nd scene.
He also emphasized the importance of the psychological component. And of needing to be humiliated and degraded. I told him those are some of my specialties.
Aside from the overlap of his main interests with some of my specialties, sub c is the kind of player I especially delight in: he actually has a sincere interest in giving up control to me, he’s very much open to my vision and to being pushed, and he enjoys thoughtful consideration of the scene.
Doesn’t he look good here? Mmm…good enough to beat!
I loved our session and had deeply satisfying moments of Domspace. I can get really creative when I feel like someone isn’t afraid of being challenged, trusts me and my skills, and is genuinely surrendering to me.
He wrote me this a couple of days later:
“Thank you for another session that was more than I could have hoped for. There is so much that is packed in to a session with you that it takes me days or weeks to fully appreciate what you created.
In particular, it has been fascinating for me to process [one of the scene activities]. In the moment, I was mentally frustrated. It was within my limits but definitely not something I would have fantasized about or asked for. …
As I process, I begin to see the genius in what you created. You took me to a place where I was experiencing exactly what I was requesting, submission of my will to yours. I was not pretending it was happening, it was actually happening and the mental frustration of the moment was an essential component.
I love that you challenge me and that you are thoughtful and creative with the methods and mediums that you use to push. I think in some ways that the mental suffering I went through feels now like a more authentic way of being hurt since there was a bit of a time gap before I was able to contextualize the situation and ultimately get satisfaction from it.
I’m sure more revelations will come as I continue to sort things out, but I just wanted to let you know I am in awe of your sorcery.”
Thank you, sub c! I hope to adventure with you again soon!
I had the pleasure of welcoming R to Temenos recently. We spent the day together which really allowed us to become immersed in our experience.
Though R consented to photos, I didn’t take many. I was too focused on what was happening. Here’s one moment when I had him immobilized in a body bag with layers of rope, straps, and chains. Of course, I couldn’t help but take advantage of such enticing defenselessness and took my time torturing his nipples (et cetera).
I could detail much of what we did, but instead I’ll share with you some of what he emailed me the next day:
Thank you so much for the fabulous session yesterday.
I think you know that I loved every minute.
The session went beyond my wildest dreams. … I’ve been playing for 30 years and have been visiting professional Dommes from 2 to 4 times a year in the US and Europe. I have some chronic medical issues but still love to play.
… I’ve never before had my limits pushed so close to the yellow level without quite going there. My nipples will never be the same and are already asking for more!
The meal with e-stim was great fun for me and seeing you grinning as you increased the level while I was trying to make conversation made my day.
I loved you “Domme” outfit and every minute of play.
It takes a truly extraordinary Dominatrix to plan and expedite play at the highest level for many hours. … You are a true artist and simply incredible
Looking forward to seeing you and Phoebe again next year.
He also brought me these thoughtful gifts:
A pretty scarf with fringe and some food for the strays I care for.
Thank you, R! Safe travels and looking forward to next time!
Quelle belle vision, non?
Beth came back for round two. This time for two hours.
Knowing what I had come to learn about her, I thought she’d enjoy more spanking. Not only for potential eroticism but also as something that could be therapeutic for her. So, I decided to give her a more immersive experience with it. I instructed her to lay across my lap and I gave her a thorough bare-handed spanking.
Then, of course, there was more tickling. Which has both of us literally rolling on the floor. She kept trying to writhe away from me…and I kept dragging her back. The laughter was infectious.
I then introduced her to flogging. Varying and building sensations. She surprised me with how much she took for her first time.
And, like that, two hours was up.
Later that evening, she sent me this email:
“I got home a little while ago and although I spent the entire car ride back trying to figure out how to thank you properly, I am still at a loss for the right words.This has been a very rough month for me. My depression and anxiety have been unrelenting. I’ve had a constant tightness in my chest and all my nerve endings felt like they were on fire, everything hurt. But then I came to see you and for some reason by some miracle, you managed to quiet all the noise in my head and all I was thinking about or focused on was what was happening in that room today. I felt safe and protected and cared for and I don’t know how to thank you for that.I really appreciated everything you did today and I actually enjoyed it too. You make it easier to try to push my boundaries and try new things. I was so worried that last time was a fluke and I was afraid to believe in the positive things I felt afterward, because I didn’t want to be disappointed or let down. And then I came today and now I know it’s definitely not a fluke. I feel even more certain that you are going to be able to help me make the changes I need to make in my life, if you will allow me to keep coming back. I trust you and would really like you to continue to guide me through this journey, if you are willing.Thank you so much Mistress.”
“For the first time in a month, i slept soundly thru the night and didn’t feel exhausted when i woke up. And today, I’ve just been thinking of everything i felt and experienced yesterday. For two hours i didn’t feel broken or defective or afraid. I don’t know how you did that, but i am so, so grateful!”
I just saw Beth for the first time last night. She contacted me and said she really wanted to experience a session with a Dominatrix, and had thought about for a long time, but felt very apprehensive about it — so apprehensive that she felt she couldn’t even talk about it out loud.
While we were negotiating the scene, which was clearly challenging for her, she expressed some deeper issues, such as embarrassment, shame, and that she “spent a lifetime repressing feelings or thoughts that seemed ‘wrong'”.
She disclosed that she struggles with depression and a lot of anxiety. She explained that she’s let fear “rule” her her entire life and make decisions for her, and this has filled her with many regrets. Some of her fear was about physical contact and intimacy, and that she’s has created walls to protect herself, which simultaneously has created her own isolation from happiness and fulfillment.
But she said she is tired of it. She’s tired of being a “prisoner of her own brain”; she really wants to break through that. And she told me she thought I would be a good match for her because of my background and skills in psychology, and the testimonials that people had written about their experiences with me.
I suggested a coaching session before we met to discuss some of these deeper feelings and hopefully help to assuage her anxiety. She accepted and it allowed me to get to know her even more, which allowed me to tweak the session to benefit her even more.
I wanted it to be therapeutic, but also sexy. Well, here’s what she emailed me afterward:
“I just got home, exhausted, a bit delirious and with a behind that is still stinging….I smiled the whole way home. I truly do not know how to thank you for tonight. It was the most incredible thing I have ever experienced, and although I am still a bit overwhelmed and my head is spinning as I try to process this, I am so profoundly grateful to you. You really must have super powers, because you managed to intimidate me, get in my head and push, while somehow managing to make me feel comfortable with you, and safe. Trust does not come easily to me, and although I don’t know why, I do trust you. I left your house feeling so proud of myself ( a rarity!) And by the time I got home, I was actually feeling hopeful, for the first time in a very long time, that I might be able to break thru these limits this time. Hope is everything, and I have no idea how to thank you for that.
I hope I have your permission to request another session with you down the road, because i really believe I have more work to do. And, just typing this is making me bright red, but it was actually fun!
Thank you so much Mistress, for everything.”
Some say I’m a demanding and severe Boss. Perhaps even cruel.
This office boy learned what happens when you don’t deliver.
I had a great time with slave john during our last session.
One thing I appreciate about him is that he is terrific about rolling with whatever I come up with. Whether it’s physical, psychological, or verbal.
A couple of months ago, I was in Passional looking for new toys. I saw these nipple clamps with little buckets(!) attached and I had to get them to use on slave john.
He’s come for a few sessions since then, but I had other ideas in mind for those sessions, so I hadn’t used them yet.
This time I came up with a way to incorporate them that would entertain Me and, to My amusement, slave took to it, as they say, like a fish to water.
I laughed quite a lot during our scene. At one moment in particular, I asked slave to yell out self-descriptors with Me, and we said, “Faggot! Pig! Whore!” at exactly the same time. It got a real belly laugh out of Me.
He accomplished a lot on this day. Including the honor of being My bootcleaner…
slave john said he had a wonderful time. I did, too!
(He also brought the homeless cats another case of food! Thank you!!)
I hadn’t seen pauletta in a couple of years — and it was time to change that.
After agreeing that it would be fantastic for her to serve all day long, she hopped on a plane to Philly.
First, she had to prove herself worthy to serve by cleaning My floors.
I think you missed a spot, bitch…
She then graduated to serving My feet. (Which I enjoyed so much that I neglected to take any photographs.)
pauletta then had the privilege of taking Me to a lovely dinner.
Once we returned, I demanded that pauletta strip and then restrained her on the cross.
See how she thrusts her ass out for Me? Further, pauletta, further…show Me how much you ache for it…
pauletta had asked for the honor of being whipped by Me. Specifically, she had never been whipped hard and wanted to know what it was like.
After giving her a taste, it was time for one to remember…
she shuddered and clung to the cross. I smiled.
I then moved her to My bench. It was time to have her truly earn her place.
…and that she did.
A short excerpt from pauletta:
O/our session allowed me to let go of my ego! It was so much fun!!
You were so gracious, and generous, and fun last night.
… I can’t thank You enough.
Thank you, pauletta! What a lovely day I had with you!
Monkey Dick likes when I am rough with him. This is good because I like opportunities to be rough. I especially like to physically dominate in the form of take downs, slapping, punching, kicking, pinning, and generally pushing and pulling you around so it’s very clear who is in control. After enjoying some of just that, I forced him into this new humbler, which I purchased especially with him in mind:
It presents a nice little predicament when faced with…oh…other stimulation.
After thoroughly enjoying his being completely at My mercy, I restrained him to My cross.
After making his balls completely exposed and vulnerable to Me, I took My time torturing them. Then, his cock. Crushing, slapping, punching, whipping… It was an intense two hours which I absolutely loved!