This sub had never done any BDSM in his life but had wanted to for a long time. I was delighted he chose me for his first experience.
He had purchased a new bra, panty, and stocking set, so I dressed him in that and all while in various states of bondage, he got a spanking, flogging, paddling, and even the first taste of a whip: a single lash of my Devil Tongue. He handled this very well.
*does my magic* “You’ve never been touched like that before, have you?”
If you’re a man who is interested in exploring your “feminine” or “femme” side you may feel embarrassed or ashamed. Though it’s common to feel this way, you don’t have to. You can release the fear or shame you carry about exploring yourself as a whole human being.
Why do you feel so embarrassed or ashamed? One reason stems from the way men are socialized. Men are taught to believe that comparisons to women — whether in the tone or cadence of their voice, body shape, clothing preference, or mannerisms — are emasculating and ultimately an indicator of their lack of authenticity and value as a man and person. In short: if you are in any way like a woman, you are defective; you aren’t “man enough”.
I’m here to tell you: none of it is true. You have been lied to.
You may feel that the entirety of the construct of “male” doesn’t apply to you. Or maybe just some of it. You may feel that you’d prefer to act or dress differently. Even if only on special occasions. You might want to have different interests and hobbies. Express your emotions freely. But you feel trapped by the expectation that’s been created for you.
Know this: the template that men are assigned to is only someone’s idea about who they think you should be. And it is likely in some way rooted in their need to control the existence of others to compensate for the fears they have about their own. The great news? You don’t need to let someone else’s fears become yours too and rule your life.
So you think you’d like to explore your femme self but you have some apprehensions. You don’t know where to start. You’re afraid you might be judged. You feel like you might not relate to what you see other men do, so you think that maybe it’s not your thing.
If you would like to explore these parts of yourself with someone you can feel safe with, I welcome you. You are free to be who you are without fear that you will be mocked or judged. In fact, I explicitly state under femme/feminization on my interests page that, unlike the typical approach to “feminization”, I don’t do any femme play as a form of humiliation. Aside from my not seeing femme as anything to be degraded for, but as one way of being beautiful and sexy, I find it antithetical to Female Dominance.
I’m highly competent with this idea we call “gender” and the way in which it can be expressed. I have spent a lot of time both working with people who have unconventional ideas about their gender or don’t feel the identity they’ve been assigned applies to them, to having done a lot of thinking about the phenomenological and epistemological aspects of identity, including gender and sexuality, and how I personally feel about and relate to them.
My awareness extends from the commonly-understood constructs of “male”, “female”, “masculine”, “feminine”, “androgynous”, etc.; to the fusion of seemingly contradictory concepts like “boydyke” or “girlfag”; to gender not actually being a real thing.
If you see how others express their “feminine” or “femme” selves and you feel alienated, it’s important to know that “femme” is a range of expression. It doesn’t have to be done in stereotypical ways or with hyperfeminine clothing, as is commonly depicted in BDSM.
This means it doesn’t have to be:
You assuming a female persona. That is: men can wear lingerie, be sexy, be slutty, and NOT have to become “women” to do it. You can retain your identity as a male person and wear panties, stockings, bra, makeup, eyelashes, heels, etc. (Though it’s okay if you do want to be your “female” self.)
Include anything pink. Love red? White? Black? Blue? Gold? Your expression of femme can be any color you like.
Include anything frilly, lacey, with ribbons, or otherwise “cutesy”. This is what I mean by “hyperfeminine”. It sort of like taking stereotypically girly things and turning it up to 13. The effect is you looking like a doll or child or wedding cake. Again, if you genuinely like this, wonderful, but it’s not necessarily what femme looks or feels like to everyone. (In fact, it doesn’t for the vast majority of femme/female-identified people.)
A “full transformation”. Though some people want to spend hours transforming their appearance from head to toe, others just want to put on lipstick or panties or heels.
Here’s some images that depict a range of femme expression by men (or at least people who were likely assigned male at birth):
Expressing yourself in a femme way also doesn’t mean:
You’re confused about your identity as a man
You’re a “sissy”
You’re really a woman
You’re gay (panties or heels don’t make you gay, they make you pretty)
You deserve ridicule
How you explore your femme side can be as lighthearted or as deep as you want it to be. It can be the entire focus of our session or it can be almost a “non-issue”, like your hair or eye color. This means your femme expression can range from highly eroticized (you sexy slut in your pretty panties and garter belt) to devoid of intentional eroticism (you’re wearing panties, sure, but this is really about me tying you down until you can’t move a muscle).
Whatever feels good, I’d love to facilitate an experience for you!
First, an item I had *just* put on my wishlist either the day he bought it or the day after…
A set of beautiful hand-made Moroccan espresso cups and saucers. (To go with my new espresso machine.) Love them!!
5 pair of beautiful black thigh-highs! Between this and the others I’ve received recently, I am set with stockings for a while.
Thank you, james!
Then, I received this garment steamer (which will be very helpful smoothing out backdrops for photos)…
…and always useful gift cards!
Great timing on the Lowe’s card. I need some hardware!
Thank you, beth!
Next, I received a card with a generous cash gift of money to spend (not pictured) and also money for my collection…!
These are uncirculated bills from various countries, including China, Cambodia, Indonesia, Vietnam, etc.
And also these…
Various old U.S. bills! I’m especially in love with the $20 bills from 1934 (upper right). I don’t have any of those and they’re fascinating as they almost look counterfeit because of the way the ink appears on the paper.
Thank you, slave john!
Then, I got actual kinky comics!
Including the very first Kinky Comix I posted of Star Sapphire commanding Superman to kiss her boot (lower left). What a cool surprise! (An interesting coincidence is that the Lois Lane in the lower right was going to be my next Kinky Comix post…and now I have the actual comic!)
Some wonderful latex — including a very sexy dress I had on my wishlist for 7 years!
Thank you, Admirer!
Next, a gift card from sub c…
…with a lovely note attached. An excerpt: “I wanted to send you something (attached) in appreciation of your talent and skill and (if I’m honest) somewhat as an excuse to let you know how often I continue to reflect on our sessions and their meaning to me. … I can’t thank you enough for what you do.”
Thank you, sub c!
A card with a lovely gift inside.
Thank you, Monkey Dick!
I also received several thoughtful messages from other subs who sent me warm wishes for the holidays.
Thank you, everyone, for your thoughtfulness and generosity. You made my Solstice very special. xo!